All I Wanted

All I wanted was for you to place your head on my chest, around that place where my heart is.
All I wanted was for you to listen to my heart beat, listen to how my heart beats for you, I know it’s not gbedu, it’s not beats my Sarz, but all I wanted was for you to listen to how loud my heart beats for you, how fast my heart beats cause of you.
All I wanted was for you to listen to my fears, listen to my dreams, listen to my nightmares, listen to my hopes. All I wanted was for you to realize how complicated my heart is. 
All I wanted was for you to lie close to me, close enough to know I never want to let you go, close enough to see through my soul, close enough to hear my worries, close enough to feel my breathe, close enough to know how much of a mess my past made me.
All I wanted was for you to tell me the things I don’t wanna hear, tell me how you really feel for me, tell me what you really want from me, tell me that I’m not who you want me to do, tell me we can’t go as far as I want us to go.
Really all I wanted that night was just a kiss, I never meant to go that far. But I wanted more than a kiss after I got the kiss and it seemed to me like you wanted more than I wanted, I guess I was wrong but why didn’t you stop me when I reached for your pant? Why did you allow me take it off? Why didn’t you stop me? Why don’t you want us to do that again? Why are you being distant? I could tell you loved what happened as much as I do, but why don’t you want it to happen again? What are you scared of? I’m scared too because I’ve fallen again, more than I should, more than I did the last time, this actually feels like the first time. I’m scared this is the wreck of me because I’m obsessed now and I’m addicted, is there a love rehab? Please refer me to one.
I’ve told you all I wanted, do you know all I want now?

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